When technology fails you...

Refer to the title of this post.

Mental, emotional meltdown. That is, when technology decides to fail you. Altogether.

Imma HUGE fan of all things tech-y. It's very intriguing and amazing, almost mind-blowing at the same time, when one takes a tour of all the new gadgets. Loooove, craving, addiction. (Oh golly. Control, Xiaoen.) DSLRs, Apple's new Magic Mouse (it is darn cool), laptops, photo printers, computers, phones.. ah.

It's a different story, however, when technology FAILS you. Trusty laptop crashed a while ago. Ok, fine. THEN, my dad's one crashed as well. And because my house does not believe in a desktop, we are currently living in a house with absolutely no computer or whatsoever. This handphone which yours truly is typing this post upon right now.. has been the only (super tiny) window to the cyber world. Speaking of the cyber world, I think it is too big for anyone's good, and many have already spiralled into it to a point of no return. The cyberworld will crash one day.

And everyone will lapse into huge fits and meltdowns. Imagine the sight. Scary.

So anyways, back to the story. After the demise of both laptops in the house.. my wonderful harddisk which tania cleverly found previously.. is spoilt. Haven't thought about thinking if it a)is really spoilt b)can be fixed c)can be salvaged. think a few thousand photos and documents.

Handphone is a bit wonky as well. Aah, my only window to the cyber world~

Ok actually i havent come to the zhong dian of the story yet. But anyways, the moral of the story (long story cut short) is that

1. Save your work periodically while doing. The stupid-ness of doing halfway and then something crashes/hangs/dies and-you-realise-that-all-your-effort-has-gone-down-the-drain is seriously darn stupid. Save your work, period.

2. Find out and KNOW the WEP key of your home's wireless network. Seriously dude.

3. Stay calm in the face of technical adversity. Humans triumph.

And the rest I forgot. Anyways, like the good ol' friendster status for relationships, "It's complicated." Complicated, it is. Golly, can you imagine how much more technology will continue to grow down the years? Scary. Exciting nonetheless!

We continue to hope fervently for homework-savvy robots. Let there be less machine guns, more nice happy funny huggable robots.

And may they never break down.

One NYPSL.

exhausted, but absolutely fulfilling and wonderful.

thankful for inspiring teachers, right smack awesome exco'08, fellow sec4 psls and amazing, amazing, amazing juniors. you guys rock.

more on psl camp soon (: hitting the sack. PGA badge ceremony tomorrow, nervous, but excited.

peace out world.

because You saw my tears in the velvet dark of the night.

dear God, thank you for your endless grace and mercies. and for all the bible stories, which encompass every imaginable situation we go through in life; they bring lots of comfort, hope and cheer when things get really hard.

dear God, thank you for just being there and answering prayers. even though some prayers go unanswered, i know that Your timing is perfect. thanks for all the surprises and little bits of happy-ness you give.

dear Father, thank you for just being there; having You around is like snuggling up in a thick, warm Winnie the Pooh blanket, especially on a cold rainy day. :)




don't you love the feeling when you snuggle up in a nice big blanket? so warm and fuzzy :)


last paper to go. math, im terrified of you, but hopefully you'll be ok (: sqwawk!


say hello, we're free men once more.

BECAUSE IT'S 2 DAYS TILL LIBERATION!! 2 more days 2 more days! ignoring the looming upcoming intensive chinese lessons before higher chi O's. but yeah!

PSL camp,
PGA badge ceremony,
REMOVING OF BRACES,
Farewell'09,
graduation ceremony,
(higher chinese O's)
grad night,
ms teng's return to s'pore,
PGA@Istana,
sarah's birthday + Adventure to the Airport (?),
vacation to.. somewhere undecided yet,
SIS@Kidzhut,
nygg atc'09?,
CHRISTMAS! :D carolling + meet up with Ms Tan

i love christmas!!
plus a heap of movies to watch and people to catch up with and presents to prepare. squeak, hang in there, everyone! think about life after exams! oh crikey hopefully i can walk across the bridge. squeak. physics, i will own you man. no not really, but must try. ok bye think positive think positive!

#468

This entire week has been intense. Madness. The inner mugger in everyone unleashed like a crazy monster. Mad. And it's like when I think I'm studying dang hard, everyone else is studying even harder! Oh, boy.

The atmosphere in every single Sec4 class is 太恐怖了. It's this thick, dark, high-energy, fast-moving, silent cloud that floats across the classroom, except for recesses, when people loosen up a tad.. And then return quickly to our classrooms to continue studying again. Everyone's studying till we're turning green in our faces.

Madness. Ok bye, the reality of life beckons. Geography is waiting to be conquered. Xiaoen is pretty certain she will not finish studying in time for both Chem and Geog on friday. Crikey.

Go, fellow muggers of the world.

a million thoughts bubbling over.

Title says it. Am a tad confused now, really. :l

Roar, ('ve been roar-ing a lot lately) life's been pretty much study, sleep, slack, study, study, slack, slack, study, sleep. eat.

Kinda. But thank God for nice little highlights and suprises here and there, despite times when you feel like resigning and go, "Life sucks." And for weird, strange, happy, encouraging, caring people around who push you a little, love you a little, motivate you a little, and it's these little littles that make that one little step more possible. So thank you, God. And thank you, people who shower my life with littles. (:


75 for Math (I) and (II)? 'Ve got no clue. This feeling is but all too familiar. Who wants to fail anymore? Hate this apprehension. Bother. :( But.. there's no point in this gibber, so keep quiet, slash the worries, do your work and prove your worth. Easier said than done, but life's about trying, isnt it? So try it will be.

Will be moving to another blogsite when there' time. Privacy issues are a bother with blogger. - -" Livejournal? We'll see! Or maybe this whole blogging thing will end. - -" Oh yeah, sorry for the -______- posts lately. 'Ve been blogging from my handphone so no photos! Plus life's been -_____- too. But at least a -______- life in peace and health is better than one struck by the calamities of natural disasters and rife. We need to keep the victims of the recent spate of natural disasters in our prayer, and give thanks for our relatively peaceful lives.

Am out. Frenzy of papers coming. We will remain unfrenzied. Er is there such a word? Okay goodbye.

HAHAHA omg i just read smth! secret obsession. shhh. ;D

dreamt of farewell yesterday night. it was a bad dream - -" in the dream the juniors didnt fall in when the whistle was blown for roll call and everyone got scolded o: and then the whole concert was really short and everyone just went home normally when it ended. man.

am really looking forward to farewell! besides the fact that the sec1s keep saying "it's gonna be good... ;)" (oh dear), i'm super excited! almost feels like i could burst into little shiny round bits of excitement droplets. oh boy, what a description. :D

yanquan's latest post on graduating makes a lot of sense, we really need to make full use of all the time we've left. and er i really need to quit praising her blog so often - -" but for now, focus on final years first, sappy stuff for next time. yo, IH.

thank you, God for strength and stamina the past two days. (: in spite of a very sad zuo wen, which, can i not fail? :( but please give everyone energy to keep going and that no one will fall sick :D :D drink water and eat fruits, peeps 8)

happy mooncake day in advanced, yall!



hahaha omg really super excited. :D

ok byebye. xiaoen will pass IH! :D

What's their p?!

Hello, graphs. Hello, globalised world. Hello, esters. Hello, exams.

Hello, to all the fun and super plans I have on hand after the exams.
Which means... Hello, exams. I need to say hello to you first. (:

Go, everyone (:

Thankful.

Thank you, God, for seeing me through the past 16 years (: For giving me a safe environment to live and grow in. And for friends and family, who've given me so much love and care, which I am very, very thankful for. Please teach me to focus, to self-discipline, that I will grow, more than in mere age, but more so to be like You, in spiritual maturity. Thank you, Lord (: Your love is the best present anyone could ever receive.

Xiaoen is sixteen!! Ok not really, Sarah reminded that I was only born at 10 plus at night - -" But heh.

Spent the day with Chin Ling Rah, over lunch and study. Twas quite a fruitful day, really! Thanks for the super pie, the laughter-filled meal (with beheaded baby octopus-es and all) plus all the time, fun and love (: Lookin' forward to our next adventure! Oh Rah, your birthday's next. (;

Thank you for all the greetings and SMSes!! Albeit with "Eh grow up lah" or "Exams are coming!!!". Haha (: Really, really appreciate your thoughts, super friends! :D Man, some made me tear. (AAH IM SO WIMPY HAHAHA :D) But it's so nice when people tell you you mean a lot to them! Squishy hug.

It's a weird and wrong time to have a birthday, when everyone's buzzing about for exams. - -" But mm, it's F1 time, and 月饼节 is around the corner too. So, haha! Not that bad lah. 8)

Some surprising well-wishes today, from people whom I haven't seen in an awfully long time, from past camps and stuff. It's a cool feeling man (:

Squeeee ok, over and out. Thank you, you, you, you and every single person out there, you have no idea how much you mean to me (: I love you, and may God bless your happy soul (: Just as how He's showered my life with so many blessings.

Happy birthday to meeeeee! :D
/Edit- AND CHAN YAN NING MY SUPER TWIN THE HANNAH MONTANA (: I LOVE YOU!

#463

just read yq's latest post. blimey, i am in full admiration of her brain's deepest thoughts. everything is so true, which makes it really sad. on a sidenote, never really thought this whole IP thing was a good idea anyway. you know, we learn so much during lessons, have all those discussions about education and all, it is evident that singapore's education system has some major flaws, but no one seems to be doin' anything about it. i wonder how our children's times will be like next time. being in a good (what's the definition of good, anyway? didnt we read about the school placing system in LA?) school makes you see stuff. and think. it's quite sad 'cos we're forced not to feel. He that feels, fails. what difference can we make, anyway? ok back to the point. anyways reading her post blew me off at several points, like, blew off in a good way. or maybe it's just me. but wow. reality bites. kinda like, ouch. 'twas really insightful to read, there's this bubbling over feeling inside me now. eh can i request it to be read and discussed during LA? i can already see miss teo nodding in agreement with the points you've raised. wait, interruption, suddenly remembered. watched the vid of miss singapore world. woah. cmi. and no wannqin, i really dont mean 'can make it'. more so of its contrary, really. i vow to be a good english teacher next time. poof okay bye (: we really ought to make our placement across the bridge, albeit already pre-determined, one with honour and equally deserving as that of 2 points(!!) (i still cannot believe it.)

BVOOMS, everyone.




quit; it's killing you.

On hair.

As the title goes.

1. Woke up this morning, looked into the mirror and exclaimed to the person on the other side of the mirror, "You look like an Ah Beng!!"

2. Yes. Ah Beng. Gladys, I can be your gangsta friend.

3. Have been avoiding reflective surfaces and mirrors around the house. My heart aches.

4. On a happier note, will be highlighting my hair in the Dec hols! Haha!

5. Mother says I am not allowed to cut my hair for one year. Er I need to rekindle my girly-whirly side.

6. Whoa how long will my hair grow in a year?!

7. Eh my hair used to be really really long in the beginning of Sec1 :B Everyone says I looked more matured then. - -"

8. Bathed and towel-dried my hair. It was completely dry in one minute. One minute, I am serious. Brilliant camp/army hairstyle man!

9. Sandy have you cut your hair yet? No it should be a mane by now.

10. Oh oh oh! Y'know I was trying so hard not to burst out laughing at the hair salon yesterday! Washed after cutting, the person was doing scalp massage and it was so ticklish I almost died! Apparently it'll er relax your mind and stimulate hair growth (I need a lot of hair growth now, actually. Fast.) But I was so stressed out during the massage cos it was so difficult to stifle my laughter! - -"

11. K nothing to say already. Shall go drink a lot a lot of milk and hopefully my hair grows out as much as possible before school starts on Tues.

12. Thank God that hair can grow!

Peace.

I love you Tania!!

Posting via handphone, dad finally found the password to our broadband. - -"

IT'S BEEN FOUND!! IT'S BEEN FOUND!! Tania's my hero! :D
Harddisk was sitting lonely-ly in the Lecture Theatre all this while, since Elections :( Pfffffft, Choo and Cheong! Rah but heh okay lah not entirely your fault :D But thank God, thank God! (: A few thousand over photos inside o:

Squeeeee! Heh heh sorry for burdening you with my woe and sorrowful moaning, people-who-sit-around-me-in-class. :) Esp Cherynn and Ali. I think I've been groaning about my lost harddisk almost everyday. The feeling of losing something sucks man! Big time. But finding something back is super amazing! :D

The weather's been a bit kuku lately. Is it the rainy season now? (wait, imma geog student, I should know..) brrr, the rain makes the air feel cold. And it makes people want to sleep! Not good, considering exams are approaching in eh... 10 days? D: aiyoheh. Gah really hope I can make it k! Math is improving, but I still get stuck all over the place lah! Someone teach me graphs! :(

OH. Another thing. I er JUST cut my hair. And Xiaoen would like to announce that, it's probably the worst haircut in my entire almost sixteen (EH MY BIRTHDAY COMING :D) years of life. I look into the mirror and I feel like crying - -" I look like a little BOY, sharks! :( wah die la ._.

Okay am running out of things to say. Tania, get you chocos on Tues! :D Peace out. And Happy Hari Raya!

A penny

From Steph's (:
Timely reminder.

Last leg of the race; push, grit and run.

Really really cannot find my hard disk (and thumbdrive). Shucks ):

Sec 3s're starting to take over duties and responsibilities. Feels quite funny deep down inside, cos' there's this lingering feeling that you don't quite want to let go yet. And it was barely that we took over, no? But, they'll do good, they'll do good (: Am quite excited about farewell actually! Not the bye-bye-so-long part, but more so of seeing everyone together, comin' together as a batch (we haven't been around each other for a long while now) and just, well, having an event altogether as one Nanyang Guides. Hahahah batch tee talks have been going on since Sec 2, hopefully we'll finally be able to complete it lol. Poured at farewell last year (Sistal, you made me cry like - -" man, darn.), but normally the graduating batch doesn't cry much right. Am quite certain Chin will cry. Hahhahah (:

K, focus. 'Ve been slightly bogged recently. We'll see. (: Sunbeamm's getting awfully drab recently, even I get bored coming to my own blog - -" Yanquan would you like to be sunbeamm's guest blogger? Sqwawk!

Bloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooop. (Suat, your fav.) So long.

Hard disk where are you~ ):



/edit:
PS! Xiaoen's hard disk is in this weird black pouch (that doesn't look very nice, really) (it feels plasticy-leathery), there's this transparent 3-way USB cord coiled with the pouch and the hard disk inside is metallic-idontknowhatcolour. It's not very nice looking, but it contains every single soft copy of every single thing which Xiaoen's ever owned since Sec 1. Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease return it if you find it somewhereeeeeeeeeeeee! ):
I think it's somewhere in schooooooooooooooooooooooooool help me finddddddddddddddddddddddd! ):

xiaoen would love to sing like that! O:

Wasn't expecting to hear something as good as this. This acapella medley is genius! Serious, let it load and play in the background while you get about doing work... I'm listening to it for the fourth time now. Cherynn, I bet with you, you will a-b-s-o-l-u-t-e-l-y love this.

On a sidenote, I'm trying to figure out if it is one guy throughout the entire vid. What do you think?

On another sidenote, I... think I lost my harddisk. The only thing that is a cause for concern is the heapload of photos-to-be-uploaded in it. Poo ): Hard disk, where art thou?

First day of school wasn't really good ): But bah. Tomorrow will be better (:

Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

It's 1:22am, I'm sitting in the hall doing work. The fan is blowing in my face and I am absolutely freezing. But... I am too lazy to get up and turn it off.

Shall continue to wallow in my cold misery. Hello, penguins.


/edit: What a pointless post. - -"

Survivor!

itch itch itch itch itchyyyyyyyyyyy ):
im dying from a breakout of rashes and mosquito bites. rah!

Anyways aloha! Term 4 is knocking on the door, we have come to our final term in Nanyang. Oh dear. I don't like this whole growing up thing ): Let's run away and live on an island forever. We can grow banana trees and eat bananas for breakfast lunch and dinner. And supper.

It's strange to say this, but... Xiaoen's starting to like Math! Squeeeeeee! Chem, on a sidenote, fries the brain. Thank God for a Chem teacher at home anyway. This holiday has been so-so. Accomplished some stuff, but wasted time too. Haven't got about completing as much as I would've liked to. Sigh. I think I'm catching up, but there's this biting feeling I'm still too slow too slow! Die lah. World, can you stop moving for a bit and wait for me to get in line with everyone else? As in, do you liao jie the feeling, like you're already giving your 100% in this last leg of the race, but everyone else is throwing in their 200%!!! Sqwawk.

I miss Guides and everyone else! ): Sqwawk.

Squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee am keeping my fingers crossed that I'll be able to make it across the bridge man! Then my aunt can bring me to US squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Hopefully hyeh (: Oh but I've got back up plans man! Hahahah I was flippin' through the Ngee Ann Poly magazine yesterday, there are quite a handful of courses that are super appealing man. Heh (: Xiaoen thinks she'll do okay in life!

This post's been full of squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees and sqwawks. I'm in a terribly good mood. Boing boing boing boing boingggggggg~ On a sidenote, does anyone have any secret concotions for GROWING TALL? :D A thought just hit me just now, that if I wanna grow tall, I must do as much as I can and grow as tall as I can before my growing years are over man! On a side side note, it's time to stop eating so much and start working out. - -" I've been eating double portions for a few week already. Plus all that supper O: I need an aerobics instructor like Huili. Guess what guess what? Shoulder shoulder~

Okay squeeeeeeeeeeeeee I shall stop here and go jump around the house I feel like laughing and smiling! Die what is wrong with me. (No, I am not in love - -")

Sqwawk. Peace out.

outsmart? hah!

Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Munching on cherry tomatoes now ): I will not cook noodles for supper I will not make pizza toast for supper I will not make garlic bread for supper. Hello cherry tomatoes, I have never liked you at all but you're the only healthy snack available in the fridge ):

Man, what's with my stomach recently man. Bottomless pit man.

I must be growing.
(Taller.)



Elections tmrw. It'll soon be time to move on.
Batch '07, we have faith in you.

Xiaoen is hungry.

Realised that the last few posts have been pretty er abstract. If you're visiting for the first time please click on the archives for happier moments. (;

Anyways speaking of archives ohman sunbeamm has seen changes and growth over the years. It's quite horrifying to read the posts in Sec 1. O: But at least I'm much more matured now right. Right. You are nodding in agreement.

Probably won't be posting much till EOYs, if any at all. Laptop crashed and died haven't gotten over it yet ): SMS if you send some urgent email!

EOYs are coming. Then poof! And we'll be out.



Teachers' Day Concert '09 was a blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaast! Was too high during the entire concert to recognise any faces. Only person I saw was Evelyntan, right smack in the middle. Audience was awesome man! Hahahah the entrance was epic failure but everyone still screamed anyway. And wooaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh the teachers' performance was ownage. Ohman the pre-preparation was worth it HAHAHAH. Huili is (Y) (Hahah Gladys, learnt this from you). We're famous. We're famous.

My class rockssssssssssssssssssssss 8)

Back-up career option'll be to go to Mediacorp and overthrow Babarella. Hah!


Thank God that everything fit together in the end. Even the Awards segment! None of this could've happened without Him.

And am extremely thankful for absolutely amazing people who never fail to render their help, even if it means waking up at 6:30am. All the way for friends like that, of whom I am now enslaved to. (Dear friend you know who you are and you have no idea how the concert was only possible because of your help.)

And we are all now proficient in pronouncing Christian Lacroix, Hermes & Dolce and Gabbana.

(Thank you (; )

So long. Till the next time I use the internet. Maybe it's a good thing the laptop crashed (:
Goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo man! 8)

R.I.P.

My laptop died ):
Ohman~
Is it just me or is blogger really screwed? The posting layout is totally... - -"

Shucks lah, can't get over the death of my laptop. It didn't even bid me farewell ):

xiaoen…

just ranted to Yanquan. i still feel horrible deep down, but … anyways.

at the end of the day, none of this is going to be reflected anyway. my report book will only show a series of failures, my mathematics grades and how badly i’ve been doing for studies. so maybe we should all just quit.