death.

i need need need to get my life back on track.
help me, God!

maybe i should quit schooling and rest for a year or smth. :D
ah well.

reading catherine lim's "unhurried thoughts at my funeral" currently..
makes you ponder and look at your own life.
at least it did for me.
what would happen if i died tmrw?
will people cry?
hmm, i wouldnt want people to cry for my death.

i think i might die with regrets cos perhaps.. i didnt put in my best effort on earth, i didnt have enough courage to share Christ's love with everyone, i wasnt a good testimony...
i cant wait to see God, but then again im afraid to see God.

if i die tmrw, but my death can bring the salvation of grandma and everyone else (friends, relatives, so much more), i'll gladly give up my life (:

roar it's quite depressing to think about the scene at my funeral.
please dont cry for me, i'll be in heaven with God! (:

are you ready to face judgement?

the Bible says that in the end times, there will be killings, war and natural disasters. the world will be plagued with sadness and sufferings... on judgement day, we'll stand before the Almighty, to face up to what we have done, and what we have not.

do other people sometimes ponder about death?
death is such a morbid issue, yet none of us can escape death.
i quote from her book, "Death is the greatest and most successful democracy."
was sharing with mom what a powerful sentence this was, she disagreed.

with Christ, death is defeated. only those who believe in Him will be saved.
i dont want to see my relatives and friends in Hell ):

Lord, wont you reveal yourself?

message was "In God You can Trust". fell asleep halfway, sorry.
life is slightly in a mess right now, i guess i really need to trust Him
and throw in lots of willpower and self-control.

i've tons of overdue work, how ):

slowly, plod.

back to IH, ciao (:

12 days left to ndp parade '08!

mistakes.

mistakes help us learn. [:
we're all learning, slowly..


tried my best for blocks, really did put in effort to study.
expecting rubbishy results, but so be it.
learn and aim for eoys.


new fcs felt kinda wierd during first cca session.
dont think we did very well, but we're all learning.


station game during first cca session was super duper screwed.
especially for the first group which cls observed.
but we all put in effort. it was our first time afterall.
next time, it'll surely be better.


've made alot alot of mistakes in psl exco,
but we still managed to impromptu and give all our best.
gained alot from all the stress and failures.

slowly but surely...


plod, plod, plod.

it is at times like this when stress management, faith, friends, family and perserverence comes in. (:

YAY :D

WHOOSH IM FEELING TERRIBLY INSPIRED TO STUDY FOR BLOCKS! :D

TIME
PRIORITY
CHOICES
DISCIPLINE
COME ON
COME ON
COME ON.

dont feel like disclosing alot about ndp parade here, but mm, seniors, have confidence in us!
at least we can try :D
at most we just fail and cry together (:

step out step out step out,
fly!

eek i sound gibberish. feeling super wierd (sandy png -.-) and jumpy and whoopee doopey doo-ish!
CCA tmrw aaahahhaha batch06 yeah man bring it on.

energy level almost bursting now, but eyelids arent co-operating. shucks i dont wanna die early by sleeping late.

i dont feel like sleeping tonight! [:

IM SO GLAD IM ALIVE!
yay thank you God for everything! i love you!

Razzmatazz 2006- Combined Precision Drill

Razzmatazz 2006- Combined Precision Drill

music is fast like crazy O: but they're quite good! [: BB, GB and NPCC do more precision drills. watch the GB girls do slow march at 22 seconds. remember watching seniors do that during parade/ march past. we should try learning it :D

fancy footdrill [1]

not the best i've seen before, in terms of combining technique, music and drill, but their formations are really good! :D

one in the squad.

POOF!

FC selection last friday, last official footdrill session with FCs '08.
it's been a long journey.

i really dont know if im up to it, cos i suck at managing time and im really forgetful and careless. ): NDP parade this year, guides are GOH. there's bound to be expectations, from others and ourselves. really really really really really really really want to have a mind-blowing parade this year that will up the profile of UG. like precision drill/ fancy footdrill, but that'll mean breaking 'tradition' and stuff. and and, WE HAVE NO TIME ): we're less than a month away from parade.

DREAM BIG.
and work hard to make these dreams come true.

maybe, hopefully, perhaps. (:

failing together, achieving together.
footdrill is not about you and yourself. you could be the best in the squad, but if the squad does not work together, the squad fails together. the squad is one, you are one with the squad.

流星下的愿

流星下的愿

我要花儿开个不停陪我们永远年轻

每朵花代表了纯净的爱情

我要种出一个森林陪他听落叶回音

陪它看雪花融化了的宁境

我怎能不相信飞舞的流星

正是为了实现我和花儿的约定

看满天的星星写出我心情

正好代表着我和你拥抱的生命

也许云端里有精灵窃听我的心

就让我们一起闭上眼睛

我要提琴奏出生命陪我们永远年轻

每个音节都有渐进的感情

我要用心表演一场让世界对我肯定

让湖边的狼也用心的倾听

我怎能不相信飞舞的流星

正是为了实现我和音乐的约定

看满天的星星(流星的风景)

写出我心情(有你的背影)

正好代表着我和你(你永远是我)

拥抱的生命(命中的精灵)

也许云端里有精灵窃听我的心

就让我们一起闭上眼睛

就让我们一起闭上眼睛

shucks this song is really really very very nice. <3

self-motivation

I, Lee Xiao En, hereby promise myself

that

I will sleep by 12:30am tonighttomorrow.

I'm gonna keep my promise! :D

BRING IT ON MAN.

servant leadership

affective education seminar '08- servant leadership

` Leadership is not about personal prestige, nor is it about fame, glory and rewards; leadership is service & dedication.

` A servant leader serves first; he has a natural feeling to want to serve, then he aspires to lead, to serve others’ needs. By serving, he is making a difference in the life of others and always places his people before himself.

` To be a servant leader does not require talents, it is about developing your character and serving with all your heart and passion; being committed and never giving up when faced with criticism, transforming our passion into realistic actions to empower others to become servant leaders themselves.

` A good leader does whatever he can with whatever he has, wherever he is. He persuades people to trust him as a leader, and makes right decisions to live up to their trust.

` Mere serving is not enough, the helpless become conditioned to receive help; we need to help others to help themselves!

Paradoxes of a Leader

Strong enough to be weak

Successful enough to fail

Busy enough to make time

Wise enough to say "I don't know"

Serious enough to laugh

Rich enough to be poor

Right enough to say "I'm wrong"

Compassionate enough to discipline

Mature enough to be childlike

Important enough to be last

Planned enough to be spontaneous
Controlled enough to be flexible

Free enough to endure captivity

Knowledgeable enough to ask questions

Loving enough to be angry
Great enough to be anonymous
Responsible enough to play

Assured enough to be rejected

Victorious enough to lose

Industrious enough to relax

Leading enough to serve

oh shoots!
ah rah gahhhhhhh.
anyways blog will be quite dead so dont bother, cos there's nothing much here anyways.
hopefully i'll come out of the battle alive and in one piece on friday,
right now im just trying to smile and stop bothering myself with sucky thoughts!
byebye :D

怎么办？

/edit:
going through an extreme bout of low self-esteem. ._.
i hope the sun will shine nice and warm soon ):

on a happier note, miss tan's back in singapore!!! O:
that's er, the only thing which i can think of which makes me happy.
cant wait to meet up with ariel and everyone else! (:
(wow smiley face)

disorganised!

at times, you could just say, "life sucks".

somehow, one turn after another, you'll look back and smile.

i desperately need truckloads of strength!!!
message last sunday was on "overcoming mindset", thought the speaker was great; thank God for His presence (:

how how how how how?
can you tell me howwwwww?

i can feel death drawing near )<

disorganised post, sorry.

math beckons.

byebye.

WILLPOWER. FIGHT AH.

ramble ramble ramble

currently...
im staring at the computer screen, with almost 20 tabs (or more) with websites on american/britain healthcare system ._. boo.

if you havent watched the film Sicko before, it's quite an insightful documentary to watch! it's about controversies on the american healthcare system, and it's sarcasm-ism (what a word ._.) will wow you. thank goodness singapore healthcare isnt like that!

researching is extremely tedious.. i wish i could just read on and on and not have to collate and put into words. but i can say, im learning alot as i do this assignment. it's an insight into politics, current affairs and tons more.

it's 12:38am, and im feeling slightly tired. oh did i mention, i slept at 7am someday last week! (!!!) was doing work and somehow, the sun started rising ._. oh but it was quite cool to hear the morning sounds (: like more and more cars & buses whizzing on the road, the birds chirping and all! went to bed before my parents woke up (: and i confessed to mummy (about sleeping at 7) that night haha! she was slightly amused.

hey does anyone know if barium hydroxide is an alkali? :D

yawn. oh, today's friday the 13th. haha! do you know that 13 is an auspiscious number in cantonese? it rhymes with "long-life" (in cantonese, of course. thir-teen doesnt sound like long-life) oh that wasnt very funny ._.

hahah sandy's blog is still quite dead ._.

blocks are coming and i really want to do well for math! wanna pull up my math grades in semester 2! i know i need to work hard for it, cos im a slower learner in math and science, but sigh, math is quite boring. but then again it's quite fun, after awhile, when you feel yourself getting cleverer... slightly.

the disecting pictures on jean's blog is extremely disturbing and im still pretty spooked by it ._. im glad i didnt take bio! (: i get really icky when i see blood/joints/what-nots.

aye okay i shall leave this post for now and get back to analysing the healthcare system! :D

or should i go sleep :/

OH I REMEMBER WHAT I WANTED TO POST ABOUT.

IS MY FACE VERY AMUSING!!! O: i still dont know why people start laughing when i make facial expressions out of shock/disbelief/what-not. im still trying to master the art of raising one eyebrow (: and i need to learn how to (what do you call that blinking one eye action?!!!) blink, no wait, everyone knows how to blink. er, squint. no! shucks. AH I REMEMBER THE WORD! WINK!!! oh crap that was so dumb ._. back to the topic. aye! why do people look at my face and laugh!!! O: -chomps head-

digression: eh i think my baby photos are super cute!!! actually i wonder to myself what happened to that little girl too ._. aye, but im still quite cute lah :D

okay i shall not whine about my amusing face already ._.

this sunday is fathers' day! (: im broke ): i'll find a way :D sigh, my dad's so sweet lah! i think he's quite infamous among my friends [x he's so wierd! but he's such an amazing dad (: i would want a husband like him next time! (apart from the impatientness and some other stuff :D) my dad's impatientness can be seen when we go shopping at the supermarket! when we're barely halfway done with the groceries, and with all the dilly-dallying, my dad will enthusiastically/annoyant-ly (another brilliant word invented) go, "eh you slowly continue shopping, i start queueing." how to shop slowly when he already starts queueing?! haha! but he's such a great dad (: even though my family isnt rich or anything, but i feel really blessed to be in this family :) im happy in this cosy little hdb flat, we dont have a car, we dont eat at fancy restaurants all the time... we're just an average, happy small little family! and i've great relatives, awesome friends, and so so so much more! rejoice! ^^

shall end here! :D life's good.
(back to my assignment! >< ._. :D!)

holidays!

this is gonna be a fragmented post! just bits and pieces of stuff that i wanted to post (: im not a huge fan of ranting about daily happenings and stuff!

er, let's see.
spent two long days with miss tan yan quan. i declare that she's so wierd! heh BUT I STILL LOVE HER! :D (and i ask myself: "why?!" x)) haha! i dont know why, but i feel very at ease with her (: i think we're quite common in many ways! (apart from her wierdness. im so sane please!) mm, she came over on monday (i think... i er, lose track of days during holidays ._.) and i went to her house on wednesday! :D i like toa payoh (: oh oh, we went to the 40 storey flats! (EH TANYANQUAN WE SHOULD HAVE GONE UP TO THE 40TH FLOOR! I WANT TO SEE!!!) went to the sky garden on the 12th floor, it was quite high already lah! the flats are so cool! they look like condominiums O: aye, anyways, although we werent very productive, but mm, i think we somehow managed to push and jostle each other along the way to do work with each others' presence! haha! her baby/toddler photos look 99% like her! just like a miniature version.

i'll write about reasons why you're wierd next time after i think about it okay! :D

other stoopid/silly/pea-brain stuff that happened...
1. i thought sana course was this tuesday and i went all the way to sengkang ._. and realised the course is next tuesday! rah rah rah! hahahah but the best part is i called at least a thousand people and no one picked up my calls ): i guess nobody wakes up early during holidays!
note to self- write neatly on the calendar next time so the stuff dont sprawl all over the dates, and please be less doo-doo brained ): (:

2. i forgot about piano today ._. cos i had no idea that today was thursday ._. i think the only day which i know is sunday, cos we go down to church! (: yours truly is going to babysit for one hour as a forfeit! :D the kids are so cute! (:

speaking of church, i hope my cousin will keep to her promise to join us at service this sunday!! my cousin's quite cool about christianity; she went to church last christmas and she's okay with a leather-bound bible for her birthday present! (she readsflips through it once a year... or less, though) but you know, you dont go to heaven by not opposing christianity. ._. i think at some point or later in all our lives, we have to stop and think and question. whatever the truth we discover (though there's only one truth in reality), we need to stop wandering and plondering about in lukewarm waters!

i rest assured that i'll go to heaven after i die! i cant wait to see God and ask Him questions! and it'll be so cool if we can take a tour around the universe! :D i wanna ask Him why He created mosquitoes! i dont see a point in them ._. haha! (:

for YD (youth discipleship.. it's something like cell groups/bible study), we're doing God and Science now! it's quite insightful learning about it, but all the theories are quite silly! (im sorry!) still, whichever you choose to believe, dont believe in something for the sake of opposing the other, step out, think, bang on your own heart (Jesus is knocking on the door of your heart now, btw!) then step in! :D

sorry if i sound incoherent O: ahahah i cant think of what else to say alr! (:
i.. still have alot of work to do ): sigh!
though this holiday is really quite crappy cos we've so much work to do! but still, thank God that i get to sleep in, at least! :D

okay shall go do work now :D byebye (:

six year old breakdancer- jalen testerman :D

just discovered this really cool function on youtube, which posts videos directly! :D

here's jalen testerman, a six-year old breakdancer, he's so cute! :D

i love ellen degeneres! :D

alrighty bye bye [;

thank God :D

thank God for...

1. electricity!
there was no electricity at home few days ago, cos they were changing the meter. gooseness! it was crazy! was feeling sick that day, and mom had to go out to teach. there was no fan and the weather was insanely humid D: the clever me decided to shower to cool down! and there was no water heater! so i was freezing like a penguin (hahah sorry, random animal :D)! aye, thank God for electricity! let's remember to be thankful for all these little things in our daily lives which have become a norm we forget to give thanks. thank God!

2. fine weather! company outing to west coast! there was a mini drizzle at first, but the weather was great after that! thank God for super duper seniors and for all that fun! enjoyed myself thoroughly and i think i became closer to sparrow juniors! :D thank God for great juniors too! got to sweat it out :D (but er, i doubt we lost any calories at all cos of picnic O:) anyway! hahah played touch rugby for the first time, it's so cool lah >D i think jean must have died explaining the instructions. soccer was fun! i like soccer :D heh! should have more sports stuff together next time! :D

3. chem e-car!
this is slightly overdue, but still, thank God! prayed and prayed and prayed... and prayed. thank God that mrs lai brought her laptop, so we knew what was the right amount of vinegar and baking soda to add! even in the craziest circumstances, our car still managed to go through, round after round :D thank God for great teammates! :D qingying, cherynn, caijing (our shaker person!), yenmy! i suppose nanyang became public enemy, cos we won alot of stuff at the end of the day.. but still, yay! :D wilson (shucks what's his surname O:) was there that day too, and goose, he's so tall! D<


the team :D

4. every single person and thing! i can only say, i feel extremely blessed. im in an extremely high mood now (you may have noticed), feeling so loved and joyful and thankful. thinking of warm and fuzzy stuff makes you feel warm and fuzzy all over :D

PLUS... HAPPY 16TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY, DADDY AND MUMMY! I LOVE YOU TWO, MUCH AS YOU LOVE ME TOO! THANK YOU FOR GETTING MARRIED AND FOR BEING MY DADDY AND MUMMY :)



DO YOU SEE WHY IM SO ADOABLE! :D


CHINWEN, SUATTENG, HUIER, JUNE, EVIE, KAHMUN, HUIMIN.. (i hope i didnt miss out anyone!) (i dont think you'll see this in time, it's okay :)) you've all worked so hard and long for this camp/ competition! just put in your best effort and enjoy yourself! we're all brimming with confidence that y'all will do great! (so you need to have confidence in yourselves too!) whatever the outcome, nanyang guides are behind you all the way. WE LOVE YOU!


kay that's about it for now :D


GLADYS, hows your wound! need to chop your leg off! O: (hahhah i love you :D)


ABBY i shall pretend i didnt see the hyperlink! haha! AYE, kay lah, will do it when i have time okay! i am a deep person?!?! O: [x!


SOTONG HEH PROMISE WE'LL KEEP IN CONTACT EVEN WHEN WE'RE OLD! YOU CAN BE THE LITTLE SOTONG'S GODMUM! lovelove :D


ZIAI ohmytian! i went to the website! it's O: O: O: ! hahahah hmm, maybe i'll watch ming zhong at year end lah :D heard pretty good comments bout the show dey!


WENJUN- JIEJIE YOU'RE IN LONDON NOW ): BOO!


YANQUAN :) back! hehheh ohman so exciting this sunday! :D


VANESSA i'll email ya the photos sometime this coming week okay! :)


MISS TAN heh, i just emailed you! :D


EVIE hokey pokey i'll sort the links... soon... :D


okay im done! yay thank God that im happy, kicking and alive and posting this post now! oh, mummy just extracted her wisdom tooth ytd O: haha! random ._.


hokey pokey, addios! <3


i feel blessed, do you?

:D

wow i cant believe im doing this ._. stoopid april cheung ._. ._. ._.

1) At what age do you wish to marry?
er, 26?! haha!

2) How many children do you want?
hahahahh this was april's answer, "No! *think of the sickening 9 months, birth-giving pain, stretched stomach, stretch marks, noisy little monsters and great load of responsibility* >< or…2 max - 1 elder son + 1 younger daughter."
i want six kids! maybe more! or maybe four! aye, definitely not one! the perils of being the only child... *sorrowful melody plays* oh my, you know i read this article yesterday about this 40+ woman who's expecting her 18th child! so cool! :D i can imagine you staring at the screen going, "WHAAT?!" haha! i love little kids!

3) What I want the most now?
i dont know!

4) What are your future plans?
God holds my tommorrow :)
but honestly, i live on a day-to-day... no wait, minute-to-minute basis. ._. cherish the present!

5) If you can have 1 more dream to come true, what will it be?
that my friends and relatives will come to hear of Jesus and accept His unconditional love!

6) What are you afraid to lose now?
my grandma.

7) Do you believe in being loved forever?
yes! He is Alpha & Omega, the beginning and the end.. and so is His love! :D it's amazing. i wouldnt be able to love myself that long too.

8 ) From the first letter of your name, what would the letter best describe you?
X-traordinary. hyeh! :D (sorry, X is a difficult alphabet!)

9) How strong(in your heart) can you be?
my heart is quite fragile, honestly. (aye, and im super gullible! D<) but Christ strengthens me. honestly, He kept/keeps me going when im super tired and on the brink of physical/mental death :D

10) What are the requirements that you wish from other half?
christian, non-smoking guy :D

11) Which type of person you hate most?
"thou shalt not hate."
note to self: i need to stop using the word 'hate' :D

12) Do you cherish every single of your friendship?
definitely. thank God! :D


13) Do you believe in God?
yes.

14) What do you think is most important thing in your life?
to be a living testimony!
im trying.. slowly.. help me, Lord!

15) Do you find it necessary for you to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
nope! :D

16) What do you want your friend to be like?
nil.

17) What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friends’ eyes?
someone different, someone who can be there to bring cheer and strength! :D haha! hopefully, hopefully.. im trying!

18 ) If you have a change, which part of your character would you like to change?
be less procastinative (is there such a word!) and less easily distracted! :D

19) If you’re feeling low one day, who will you go to?
God.

20) Do you believe in patching up?
yes! :D

Instructions:
Remove one question from above, and add in your personal question to make it a total of 20 questions. Then tag 8 people in your links them out at the end of the post. Notify them through their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

ahahahhaah anything la :D

eh i've a lot of things to say! but dont feel like posting anymore :D
next time! need to straighten out my thoughts. haha!
shucks i keep haha!-ing ._.
anyway, i shall go and do work now! there is a lot of work to be done, but time is sprinting away at a record-speed. ):

happy holidays!

Dear Lord...

Why, Lord?

Dear Father,

im sorry if i was ever upset with You,

just a minute ago i wanted to blog about how unfair, cruel and heartless You are.

it is so difficult, so difficult, Lord, to control my emotions and tears when i see those little children in eternal sleep.

no man will ever comprehend Your will, Lord.

but please, help us to remember that everything is good in Your time.

Father, i pray that in this time of pain, sorrow and anguish, please comfort broken hearts and mend shattered homes.

parting is such sweet sorrow;

seeing our children die must be such terrible pain.

but Lord, these are Your children too.

just like how You had to turn away and forsake Your Son, when Jesus died on the cross,

You must be hurting now as You watch man suffer for his own actions.

please help us to see the light, as we grope in this world filled with darkness.

i cant wait to go to heaven to see You, where there will be no more pain and hate and anguish.

where we will sing praises to You everyday and our hearts will be filled with eternal joy...

... so help us now, to overcome satan's temptations, to overcome this pain and sorrow,

as we fix our eyes on You.

Amen.

SURVIVORS.

went to da qiao primary school to conduct a science workshop on saturday for LA SIA [:
it was crazy fun, nerve-wrecking, blood-boiling, heart-warming all at the same time :D yanquan said it was the first time she saw me 'losing it'. haha! and i was seriously re-considering my career choice of being a teacher. seriously. nah, but this is really something unimaginable and im really extremely happy we chose to take up the challenge we set for ourselves and im so so so proud of my group! HEH! [;




WE ROCK.


we survived 35 screaming kids! :D

you know what, i might still be a teacher afterall. i love the warm and fuzzy feeling :D
5 qualified nannies + mini teachers at your service [;

tears and internal injuries

weekend's gonna be super busy.
i really want to run away and plonk down and drop dead now, honestly.

mom was telling me bout how she'll be going for a wake service tmrw (later, as a matter of fact, since it's friday), cos her student's dad passed away after being comatised for 2months. and it's the exam period for primary school now. and another primary 2 girl, whose mom passed away too.

started crying and crying and crying.

after half a minute of sitting there, feeling extremely sad, with tears streaking down my face, yet having absolutely no idea why i was crying,

i forced myself to stop crying.

i guess i wasnt really crying over the incident. partly yeah, but i think i've been bottling up alot of stuff, subconsciously. (yes yes, everyone who's reading goes, "i knew that all along!") and it just triggered me off.

watched 3 minutes of american idol and went back into the room during commercials. i sat staring at the wall, feeling utterly upset that i stopped crying. cos it felt like only a bit of stuff were drained away.

i wont be surprised if i die really young cos of internal injuries.

smelly nappies and enormous eyes.

there are moments in life when things get really tough.


you wish you could just plonk and cry and mourn about your plight.


or escape into a world of your own,
where marshmallows grow abundant and the sky is filled with candy floss.


you might not even know what's going on, cos everything is happening too much, too fast.




stop to think. say a silent prayer.


if you're weary, close your eyes and rest a little.


go out and play, breathe in the air and cast your troubles aside!


smile.


we'll waddle towards the finish line, together. (:

howhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhow
howhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhow
):

ignore me.

numbers :D

1. i used up 9 packets (or more) of tissue today, blowing my nose.
2. my nose hurts like crap, cos i blew it too much.
3. my tailbone hurts too, from sneezing too much. (dont ask me why, i have no idea too D<)
4. i think i've sneezed at least 50 times in the past 16 hours.
5. if i was being assessed during chem SPA today, im quite confident of failing. :D
6. i spent $10.00 (or more) on food.
- prawn noodle
- vegetable rice
- egg tart
- barley drink
- sausage (CHEAT MY MONEY. ONE COLD FRIED CHICKEN FRANK COST 50CENTS D:)
- tuna sandwich
- milk

WHERE DID THE REST OF MY MONEY GO TO! D<
angry. ):

7. i dont feel like going to school tmrw, but my motivation is the chem car judging. praying really hard we'll make it perfect! :D spent so much effort on it (: will be disappointed if we dont get in, but yeahh :D it wont be worth crying about too, anyways, to think of it.
8. fellowship was refreshing today :D thank God!
9. cleaning the netball court was fun! hopefully it'll stay clean :D and people will learn to clean up after their own mess and not leave it to others!
10. cherynn and i will most probably make a large advertising poster to carry around during csm to help yen my find a potential husband. many men will surely flock to her cos she has endless qualities of an endearing wife.
11. i dont feel like posting photos.
12. this post ends here.
13. i think i'll wake up without my nose tomorrow. ): and sneeze my brain away ): ):
14. we are doing comprehension during chinese lesson tmrw. i dont want ): chinese lessons were just beginning to get fun. (this is a little whine-y ._.)
15. i hope the subjects arent too dry tmrw! :D
16. note to self- stop being so lethargic and stupid (: count your teeny happy things and find strength to ka-bish the big things! :D GOD LOVES ME! :D (AND YOU.) :D
17. hooray for happy smileys!
18. this post really ends here.
19. SANDY OWES ME A LETTER. (i think you'll see this.)
20. twenty is quite a nice number.

the end.

extremely jumbled thoughts now, pardon me if the following sounds incoherent.

yd and message today was about personal motives for following Christ.
sometime during this week we discussed if we'd ever question our religion/beliefs.
read the book 'growing up Christian' about the dangers of being a 'church kid'.

talked about the concept of Evolution.
we'll be doing the topic of 'Science and God' for yd. of how 'Science can only exist without God' or how 'Science and God can exist together'.

just finished analysing the conflict of Catholics and Protestants in Northern Ireland.
i was pondering about why and how these two groups could be segregated so badly due to their religion, yet let their human nature overtake them when the conflict arises.

presented the poem 'centre of the universe' by paul durcan during language arts, 've been thinking quite a bit.
i was questioning myself if it was true that i was like the personna in the poem, but figured out the answer afterwards. im thankful for the gift to be able to listen and share, (and prayfully it will be put to good use!) i was feeling kindof funny, cos i realised im really not a person who is really frank with my feelings and opinions, as in, i'd rather keep them to myself. troubles will be suppressed and stored until they roll down as tears after too much is accumulated, which is often silent and wordless too, haha! but then again, i dont feel depressed or emotional deep inside me. (i mean it, honestly!)
figured out that i always had a listening ear beside me! ranting, giving thanks, sharing, crying, smiling, asking, talking to God! (: thank You for being my best friend, for always being there, at every single place and moment :D

shall try to pen down a short 3min testimonial, as challenged by pastor david. will post it when it's more complete.

hahah okay dont feel like posting anymoore! mm, abit incoherent but yeah :D
random ramblings:
- i got my first sunburn in my life! went to school for chem-car, experimented under the sun from around 9-4, i think. came home and discovered a sock line (which looks so funny) and red arms and legs! :D talk about skin cancer O:
- i just poured boiling water over my left hand while transferring water from the kettle to the thermo flask ._.
- there's combined sports meet this week! :D
- my hair is long! ):

ah okay that's it, i shall sleep at a normal time tonight! it's 11:06pm already [;

aah and i digressed and it's now 12:06am ._.
hokay morning! night :D

RAH I MISS YOU >(

;dance.

;dance

as though no one is watching you.

dance me through all this, Lord!

:D

If I promise you that, will you promise me you wont deprive yourself of your sleep? :)
Time management man! Haha, okay mine sucks even more but ohwells xD Haha, I dont sleep like once I reach home then wake up at some weird time and start doing homework until 3 or 4 or 5 in the morning then sleep awhile and wake up again to prepare to go to school - -" Heh.

Oh, justa-lie says thank you to Lee Xiao En for putting such a meaningful post on her, and motivating her owner :)
(sunbeamm, quick say thank you to Gladys Koh for keeping you alive! Hurry up! >/ xD)

Mm, jiayou for 2.4km tmr jiejie! Meimei hui yong yuan zhi chi ni de! Whoo, xiang qi wo jiu xing le! Haha :D
Yay I love you <3

Mm, okay I shall continue doing my work heh! :D Byeee!

post reply :D

shucks this is so stoopid, cos i just posted 5 minutes ago. but this is a matter of grave importance :D

an excerpt from miss tyq's blog:

RECESS

so like was doing maths with xiaoen. then we went down to eat together. and met qingying and chreynn. i think it's always nice to eat with ppl, in the canteen. cos usu. (i took 10 seconds before i figured out what usu. meant ._.) you will just be like finish work. okay, go down and buy food. then you feel very alone cos you have nowhere to eat.

like everytime when xiaoen spends her time with me like that, i will feel quite bad. i dunno why. (i dont know why too O: ) like you can feel that 20% of the reason of why she is being with you is basically because she wanted to accompany you or something. but she will just be like, i need to do maths and eat too mah, so will do together lorh. (alamak! but really whattttt!!)

but she is a nice person. cos somehow, it's always better with her around. (thank you :D) dunno. but u feel quite bad cos it's like... growing dependence on her presence. (was abit shocked when i read this) cos when she is around, your mood just feel better. and if she's not... you just stone down there... like... that's quite relying on her to make yourself feel happy right. so it's quite bad. (happiness bubbles from your own heart!)

and you feel quite bad, cos like... she got the capability (gift) to talk to everyone and make everyone better bah. but she will just spend the time with me. (cos i love you what!) like she can go chat-chat with her one thousand friends or something. (i wish i had one thousand friends, but i dont O: ) like, you feel somewhat selfish for having xiaoen for yourself for the whole recess. (aaaaaahhhh nooooo O: ) i dunno. makes her sound like an object, hmph. (she's a human body with flesh, heart, soul and feelings also :D)

it's just that she is a very nice person. (thank you again :)) and sometimes you wonder if you are worthy enough to deserve her friendship. (O: O: O: this is totally ridiculous, my friend. stop entertaining such nonsensical thoughts) i think it puts a lot of stress on her, saying that she got the capability to make everyone happy. so perhaps the whole class is like there, and she has the capability to talk to everyone and make them smile.

ahhh. i think i am going insane. (i agree partially. cos you're already pretty insane O: but yeahh, two insane nutheads just seem to be able to click well with each other :D) i shall stop. (my maths ws is still got that bit of blank. how leh, xiaoen, how?) (unfortunately, you've asked the wrong person. my maths worksheet is very sad ._.)

THE END :D

<3

had an eventful time after school today. was supposed to do chem car, but ended up going downstairs to tear down the Tree of Love. then evelyn and i started discussing fund-raising details for grad night. which, was efficient but inefficient. (sorry for pang-sehing, qing, yenmy, caijing, cherynn O: )

hahah shucks it's super unlike me to type out mundane details of the day's events. influenced by yanquan ._. heh but i think it's nice thinking about what happened in the day and reflecting :D what's worth being happy about and what's worth learning from. and it'll be really nice to open up my blog when im mighty eighty years old and recollecting how life was when i was fifteen.

thank you yanquan (: im sorry for making you cry/tear/laugh/go bonkers during our heart to heart talk! [x just wanna let you know that i loved talking to you as much as you loved talking to me! :D i feel a whole mile closer to you (; thank you for being... you. i dont know how to articulate some of my teeny thoughts/feelings, but i just feel that we have so much in common. nobody's perfect, by the way. no matter how perfect some people seem, nobody is. im glad i bring a tinge of colour into your life, but er, just wanna let you know that i do have weaknesses. alot of weaknesses. and i know them very clearly. but hmm, im trying to learn and change. bit by bit. and the most important thing is that im just happy being me. and im happy you're you too! so you should be happy you're you! let's remember to give thanks for the many little blessings in our lives! like friends :D do you remember the question you asked me when evelyn and cheryl were buying their spicy-looking noodles? heh, not sure if you do, but anyways. i thought about it and i disagree with my reply. every friendship is different and unique, it's incomparable. it's just.. so different you know. thank God for every single one of you! and i'll always be a ear, an arm, a shoulder, a lightbulb, a rainbow, a sun, a star, a whatever, for you! <3

thank You God for blessing me with a gift to speak, to listen, to share and to love. may You use me in others' lives to share Your unspeakable love and joy, to let them see, just a teeny bit, how amazing Your love is! thank You that You'll always be there for me, no matter where i am, no matter when it is, no matter how horrible things are.

shall end this post here (: feeling especially energetic and recharged right now, i've no idea why. guess it's more of a mental uplift! waiting for your post :D

some other random stuff;
1. i did maths class discussion ws 8.2 instead of maths ws 8.1, how clever can i get
2. my left jaw hurts like crap. i cant remember if i knocked into anything.
3. im feeling quite dejected about physics
4. it's very difficult to raise $2000
5. the arena (nanyang vs fairfield) was pretty cool
6. my foolscap paper is running out
7. i owe people letters, but i really have no mood/ nothing to write

okay i shall stop at 7! seven is my favourite number :D hahahah it's the SEVENday for netballers tmrw ahahahah!

ohman i just remembered smth, can i add in number 8! ._.

8. i have 2.4km on thursday, and im serious when i say i think im gonna fail ): howwwww.

okay the end :D IH essay! I LOVE IH! LOVE IT! LOVE IT! LOVE IT! :D

oh, but honestly honestly, geography is my current favourite subject! i hope i'll become a teacher who inspires in the future too :D hahah sidenote: jiayou to mummy, who is on the verge of going bonkers with her class of screaming, crazy, lazy kids. plus a slightly sane-er one at home :D

okay really really the end :D AH YES, I SEE YOUR EDITED POST! :D shall go read now (:

good morning, world! :D

Empower me! :D

stuff for the week:
1. chemistry practical assessment
2. IH essay test
3. napfa 2.4
4. enrolment ceremony
5. rgs campfire

stuff to complete:
1. maths ws 8.1 [tuesday]
2. maths raft assignment
3. maths euler problem 1
4. physics assignment 3.3
5. physics assignment 3.4
6. geog source-based assignment [friday]

stuff at hand:
1. chemistry e-car
2. la sia- send letter to school asap
3. proposals for ltc'08
4. fund-raising proposal for grad nite '08

daily stuff:
1. quiet time
2. some form of exercise
3. maths revision
4. practise piano
5. read chinese

Nobody knows how weak I am,
better than You
Nobody sees all of my needs better than You
And nobody has the power to change me
To what i was born to be
Jesus, be strong in my weakness,
Empower me!

Empower me,
like a rushing river flowing to the sea
Lord,send Your Holy Spirit flowing out through me
Till I'm living as Your child,
Victorious and free
Send the power of Your love,
Empower me

Nobody's eyes see through my soul,
better than Yours
Nobody's love can make me whole
No love but Yours
And nobody has the power
To lift me to reach eternity
Jesus break through all my defences,
Empower me!

<3

Xiaoen;

Thank you, for everything.
Those words on the bus were, I dont know it made a lot of sense to me after you alighted. I thought over it, like many many times, and I guess I'll just do it. Do my best. But I really hope you wont get disappointed over the result in the end :/ I know I will disappoint you, but yeah. Sorry, in advance.

I really dont know how to, bao da ni lah. Like, the phone call yesterday, the bus ride today. & Many other stuff. I bought you a balloon but it burst :O (But you feel my love right!) Anyway, yeah, you've pulled me through from the darkest storm, well this year, and let me see the rainbow after that :) You went through the night with me, and let me see the first ray of sunshine. Thank you <3

I know just a simple, thank you might not be enough, considering what you did for me. You said thank you to me for pei-ing you to go around collectin donation, haha, I'm like supposed to be the one saying thank you for accompanying me thoroughout lunch, yeah.

So yeah I'm ending here, haha a post for you, on your blog :)
You promised to post on mine okay! I'll hold you to it xD
사랑해요 <3

perhaps i should just quit school and become an event planner instead :D i dont mind actually, really (: it's fun :D (but it becomes quite stressful when it's added on top of school work ._.)

okay, comp's dying. clock's ticking. it's 3:20 am ._. byebye :D

TIRED.

im tired ):
very.

byebye (: off to do something more constructive with my life :D

hello.
i was going to post, but i just received sms from evelyn and samantha, about some more kindness week stuff. and there's psl funfair booth proposal yet to be touched.
so there, byebye (:

dear God, please refill my oil tank and fix my headlamps so that i may be recharged and rarring to go in the right direction! beep beep! :D

i need to do something constructive with my life. :D

edit: on a lighter note, marshmallows help to destress! except when you find 2 ants crawling in the pack and you wonder how many you've popped in your mouth unknowingly cos you didnt bother to look O: ants are good for health! (self-comfort.)

give thanks

thank you God, for sustaining and helping me (:

Give thanks with a grateful heart,
Give thanks to the Holy One,
Give thanks because He's given
Jesus Christ His Son.

And now let the weak say "I am strong."
Let the poor say "I am rich."
Because of what the Lord has done
for us
Give thanks.

Give thanks is the first song im currently learning how to play accompaniment on the piano! haha fyi, im picking up piano again, after 5 years of losing touch. partly because of nyaa, but partly cos i hope to serve in church (hopefully, hopefully)

Lord, help me to manage my time well! and help me stay focused!
i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me :D

is that Your voice i hear, calling in the distance?
or is it just myself, trying to escape from chains?
reveal Yourself to me, Lord. may i be more and more like You each day (:
help me to be a living testimony,
to learn to control my language (as pointed out by siyan) (ie, stop using bad words :/)
that others may see You in me,
that they may one day, be convicted in their hearts,
that You are the One and Only Way (:

i'll be a sunbeam for You! :D

give thanks.

HAH (:

okay im okay already :D
after reading yanquan's warm, fuzzy post! (:
yay thankyou bear <3

hahaha im amazed with my supersonic mood-swinging system too. just like a baby O: crying one moment, happy the next.

it's a good thing, anyway :D

/edit. omg. this happy post overwrote the one full of tears and emo stuff. hahah who cares to retype since im alot happier already (:

i like this post :D

hello blog, im sorry i've neglected you for so long! it's just that, i really didnt feel like blogging.


've been feeling a bit rah-rah recently ._. hahahah i dont know why too, but anyway (: mm, feel like ranting thoughts about some stuff but aye :D



shall post photos (:



random ones-



heh so cute like me. oh it's called shermaine :D


SL invest '08 PASS!ON (: invitation card (:
oh and i finally figured out why PASS!ON sounded so familiar.
1. The BodyShop always labels its stuff "made with PASS!ON"
2. there's this PASS!ON card somewhere i think.
wow the theme seems to shout out very loudly. :D


hahah i just thought this looked really abstract and abit cool :D

OBS (: -




SUISEN + AHMAD :D

sending my grandma, aunt, cousins at the airport :D


grandma and monghun :D


:D


li neng, xiao en, mong hun (:
(hahah shucks why do we all look slightly haggard in this photo O: )


yay i love my cousins! :D probably cos i've always been the only child, so they were really like older sisters i really envied. haha! i rem playing cute stuff (like building houses with blankets and pillows and clothe pegs :D) with mongz when we were little, then i rem being very sad when everyone started growing up. ): hahah she would dao me when i asked her to play O: time flies (: oh you know all our baby photos look really really alike! esp li neng's and mine O: mongz is really clever, im hoping she'll become someone successful and famous then she can buy me a house or smth :D and im secretly wishing li neng will quickly get married haha! (wonder if she'll chance upon sunbeamm.) anyway! yeap i love my cousins (:

LA SIA! :D


the group (: minus yours truly (who was taking the photo [;)
qing has nice legs! [x hyeh.


pardon me if the below suddenly changes the mood :D was typing chunks of thoughts while waiting for the photos to load. (is it only me or does blogger upload photos in a very irritating way?)

being a human is an amazing thing, yet sometimes it's really difficult. and life seems to be an irony. i think irony is a funny thing, it's so ironic, yet so ironic. ah shucks what am i talking about.

it's hard to like someone you really dislike.

Lord, please help me to be like you, to be able to accept others' flaws, like how you never once despised us to Your children; help me remember the story of throwing darts at our enemies; help us remember that we should never think too highly of ourselves, as we are all enshadowed by Your pure, bright light; how humbly You came to this world, to serve and go through so much more pain and trials, than what Man can ever conquer; you suffered, because of Man.

[deleted an emo reflective poem]


anyway (: i think im quite serious about becoming a missionary (: okay i really dont know. considering that i dont even want to go for a four weeks china trip, it's quite ._. i still want to be a teacher, though! :D hahaha, i was telling mom perhaps i should just quit school and do something more meaningful with my life. i dont mind homeschooling, actually! i think it'll be enjoyable (: bindi irwin (steve irwin's little girl) does homeschooling! was reading readers' digest, it's great to have a goal in life :D much less finding and striving towards it from young. for bindi, it's saving the environment and animals, just like her daddy (:

talking about saving the environment, i wish people would just stop being complacent and take things for granted. we take and throw as how we please, but dont you ever stop to think of consequences and others? crumple a piece and poof, it flies into the bin. simple things like, perhaps having a paper bag to put old, random papers (like the primary school foolscap paper i found) and send it for recycling.. if everyone tries to do just that tiny bit. not even alot, but just a little bit.. it'll mean alot. and somehow i was really feeling very ): when i saw pictures of starving children in Africa.. the truth hit me like, BOOM.

i wish i could make a difference. help me God! (: even if it means saving just one starfish :D (have you heard the boy and the starfish story before? :D)

gah, spent an hour here alr, and the LA ppt is stagnant (sorry yanquan) on a lighter note, i'll be taking piano again, but mainly for serving in church (hopefully :)) and CIP for NYAA starts this saturday, great to be able to exercise and help others at the same time. thank God! life will be getting more hectic nonetheless, but i hope i'll be able to keep walking/crawling and not die somewhere along the way. (:

thank you to every single one of yous who tagged! im really really sorry 've not been replying. will try to reply tags that come along now! (cos if i replied those in the past, they're really a looong time ago.) <3!

chins up, SMILE! :D

I DONT WANT TO BLOG

i dont want to blog.
i dont want to blog.
i dont want to blog.
i dont want to blog.
i dont want to blog.
i dont want to blog.
i dont want to blog.
i dont want to blog.
i dont want to blog.
i dont want to blog.
i dont want to blog.
i dont want to blog.
i dont want to blog.


okay byebye :D

LEE XIAOEN LOVE GLADYS KOH :D

SIGH some stupid irritating girl doesnt want to post lah - -"
Ohwells, -thegreat will come and help her keep her dead blog alive wheee! :D Haha, anyway yay Waterhorseeeee <3 HEH.

"Women are fickle minded creatures", says the owner of sunbeamm.blogspot.com
Tsk, you just demonstrated it lorh, just now in Fariprice Xtra :D Hahah, spent like ji bai nian deciding what size seaweed you want to buy. Still dare laugh at my DISC report lorh SOMEONE - -" Haiyoh! :O

Haha, oh shit I suddenly remembered something :D HAHHA, XU DOU DOU - -" Wahpiang, you best lorh, aye who started it lah! :O Haha, lala, milo's good for health cos they give you energy! HAHA, but got trans fat blah :( Haha, I bet Xiaoen got abit - -" at the foodcourt cos I kept saying that the prawns and egg got high cholestrol xD LALALA.

Okay da jia, I shall end the post hoho! :D
LEE DOU DOU CAN YOU PLEASE CONTINUE POSTING WTH! :O

Heh da jia hao, mysterious GREAT blogger is back cos she's quite bored >(

Heh hello Leexiaopengyou :D I just got off the phone with you :) & You're probably eating now, hoho! :D Roar, I'm alone at home :(

Haha, this is so cool manxzszxs :D Xiaoennn, next time must help me post HOHO :D Aah rah gah bah, I hate History and Geography and Science and Math and Lang arts and Chinese :( Hahaha, thats practically all the subjects please, goose giraffeeeeee.

School's reopening tmr :( Rah, go die block tests :O Make people stress! HAHA ohmygod it rhymes! Heh, test stress! :D Lol, so cool :D

Aiyoweh, I shall just go online and see if there are any nice people to talk to, HAHA.
BYEBYEEEEEEEE!

Xiaoen loves me times 7 :D

RANDOM :D

HELLO LEE XIAO EN AND DA JIA :D
yeah hello mysterious guest blogger!
Aye auntie, its mysterious GREAT blogger :)

Hoho, Xiaoen's busy with some proposal and compo so I'm here to post for her. But its quite sad cos she had quite a nice number of posts and rah, this post is gonna break it :( Roar.
haha! 212th post! TWOO TWELVE :D
im still stuck in my compo howhow! ><
HAHA, its 213 now my dear! Heh, jiayou for your compo!

Anyway, hoho Xiaoen loves me alot alot, haha she cant deny :) Heh!
*Random; Ooh I just sneezed! Must be her )*
HELLO?! your sneeze has got nothing to do with me! was NOT thinking of you at all ._.
COME ON! Admit it lah! :D Stop living in self denial man! :)

Yadadaya, she asked me to post a long long post but I really dont know what to write gahhh. Hah, wells. I shall think think think :)

Friends fill your life with joy, your soul with sunshine and your heart with love!
Heh, that sentence was written on my cup which is beside me now! :D
<3
awww! and my red cup beside me now says "MUNCHY'S. bite me." :D it's so stupid right, how can you bite a cup!
Heh, if you have strong teeth you can!
HAHA, nothing's impossible, you told me that xD

Mm, its lateeeee :( Xiaoennnnn, go sleep! Dont be sleep deprived! :O & You have to wake up early tmr! Hoho, aye I zhen de dont know what to write lah hahah but at least I helped you update so heh! Must xie xie wo okay! :)
XIE XIE :D
MEI WEN TI :D

Haha, the path outside my back gate is like flooded with water :/
Gah, the problem with staying at the first floor man, wth! :O Went out just now by the back gate and my feet was soaked :O Heh, its been raining alot these days mannnn.
hahaha that is so sad! i'll fly over and rescue you if you ever drownnn! (eh wait. i need to learn how to swim first!) rainbows appear after rain! ^^
Yay, I wanna see a rainbow :) Haha, but we have to ao guo the rain first. Heh, you can fly mehh :O Hahaha, and the water only reached my ankle please, what drown! The best lorh you!

Okay enough enough, I want to shui jiao alr :)
Zai jian da jiaaaaaa :)
Yay I love Xiaoen, Xiaoen loves me more <3
nah admit it, you love me mooooore! :D good night [; or rather, morning.
Sigh, when will you stop pian-ing yourself? :)
Its a well known fact that you love me moreeeee! Yay!

heh, words in greeeen by xiaoennn! :D da jia men, embrace the last day of our march holidays! the best is yet to be :D (hahah that quote just suddenly popped into my brain, i've no idea why ._.)

ah well (: thank you again, mysterious guest blogger! you're loved.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

OBS!

stepping out of our comfort zones,
roughing it out,
learning,
growing.

Lord, give me strength! (:

byebye world! determination, perservere!

life's good. :D

310!

just went to wanting's blog (okay i'll get back to my work right after this) and saw the class photo :D



zooming in, this overwhelming warm and fuzzy feeling overwhelms me, cos it's so nice to see every single person smiling so happily like they really mean it (: and i cant help but noticing choohuier and i look very alike in the photo, i have no idea why. (huier will surely go, "eeyer.") tsk lorh. ah well :D it's a great feeling when people become closer and closer together. <3! oh and mr shone looks really happy too. in fact, he seems like the proud father of 30 young ladies :D heh!

may we all be a little more sensitive to people and things around us, as we learn to walk together, never leaving anyone behind :D

ps- just found out today that class tee design submitted alr and we'll be getting our shirts on friday! O: really really hope it'll be nice (:

jazz! jazz! jazz!

i declare my love for jazz music!

jazz and slow jazz! and piano ballads.

hmm, just trying to randomly find some nice jazz music on radioblogclub.

afro cuban jazz project- cuban

music should be listened to on earphones! on both ears too :D

john coltrane- the feeling of jazz
(it loads quite slowly, fyi)

mm, loved this song the min i heard the intro :D it's really the first time im hearing all these songs.

hahahah that's for now for my new found passion for jazz! [x

anyone has any nice music of the afore-mentioned music genre please let me know! (ps, i wouldnt mind at all too if someone got me a nice cd! :D)

hahahha that's all for now.
rah rah goose. i've digressed for 2 hours ._.

;i'll rather have a few true friends than to befriend the whole wide world. (:

/edit. aah poop. removed the url. i dont know why it's screwed! >< you can try searching for the songs yourself [x sorry! i'll try playing around soon to see how to get music on this thing :D

packed like sardines

ILOVEJUNKFOOD! :D

YAY!

(hahahah sorry, it's just a random post cos i got sick of staring the same post all the time ._.)

will post something soon and constructive soon! [;
whoopey doo, and maybe attempt to reply long overdue tag replies :D

ohman i've a feeling one fine day i might just lose interest in blogging at all and delete this blog O:

hmm.

hokey pokey! ;D I NEED TO STOP DIGRESSING RAH RAH RAH O:

it's gonna rain rain rain! im cold and my ankle hurts ._.
-thunder bellows outside-

stay strong, everyone!
we're all like little ants scurrying in a huge bowl of tomato soup!
keep scurrying and trying otherwise you'll sink!
but we'll crawl and wiggle (do ants wiggle?!) out of this giganticnormous bowl together :D

oh yeah. dailaoshi shared with us during chinese lesson today;
sardines (or was it tuna?), when hauled, are seriously, packed like sardines, and end up dying really soon cos they become stationary after a while.
and the sardines dont taste as fresh.
once, there were some catfish among the sardines in the fishing net, and surprisingly, the sardines didnt die!
this is because catfish are really active and jumpy by nature, and they kept wriggling around, causing the sardines to be really irritated and it ended up wriggling about too. so all the fishes survived the boat ride back to shore :D

so, my fellow comrades, start wriggling about too! and never give up trying and fighting, cos we'll all spur each other on along the way [;

speaking of sardines, i asked mom to help me open this teeny tiny can of sardines on saturday for lunch. she was in the kitchen and i went to the living room to eat my noodles. then mummy brought the sardines out on a plate and i realised there were three huge chunks of sardines! i was like O: "you mean they all fit into that small tin?!"

the conclusion popped into my head a split second later: packed like sardines.

seems like english idioms really have meanings behind them :D

hahahah scrolling up, this post wasnt meant to be so long.

obs is next week! get your insect repellents ready and say hello to the adventure! fingers crossed! [x hopefully things will turn out fine and we'll all enjoy ourselves :D i hope i'll-
1. not drown somewhere along the way (i really ought to learn how to swim.)
2. become a shade darker :D (without increasing my chances of getting skin cancer O:)

haha! ahwell.
spread the love! :D

the end.

and it's pouring outside now ):

/edit. it's not nice to end the post with an unhappy face!

:D!

quick post before i flop on my bed and sleep!

tomorrow's the day.
everyone, believe and we will (:

and kudos to singapore! :D
(a public holiday soon, perhaps? :))

hang in there! whooooooooooooooopee dooooooooooooooooooooo! :D

packing giraffes :D

partingpacking is such sweet sorrow.

just finished demolishing the mountain on the study table and series of hills on the bookshelf :D and feeling immensely proud of myself! packing brings back alot of memories. and everything (in this case, worksheets, quizzes, tests and lesson notes) seems to have happened recently. the doodles (including a diversity of spiders and random proclaims of love) by yours truly's ever dearest (ex-)tablemateys have never been erased from my worksheets :D

and then somehow, a part of you wants to keep them; but common sense nudges you to just throw them all away, cos they're not really of much use and only collecting dust and taking up space. :/

aye, i still kept them all.

mummy said im a garang guni. ._.

AHWELL :D

but there was still ALOT of unwanted stuff! like random pieces of gao3 zhi3 from primary school (O: ?!) so i ended RECYCLING heaps of paper. aye, so proud of myself! -beams-

roar the blogging bug suddenly left. ._. it's late! shall go sleeeeeeeep :D

footdrill tmrw! last session alr, hopefully we'll all be able to last 100% throughout. [: and my estimation needs to improve cos i dont want to malu myself by raising the school flag too fast or too slow! :/

ehheh stoopid anning said my neck is long! O:

THAT'S long :D mine's perfectly normal la!

ohmygoose. i just found some uber adorable pictures of giraffes O:

erps! dont you feel like patting it on its head!

(except i dont think we can reach.)

I WANT TO GROW TALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. or at least be able to jump higher so qingying can stop laughing at me ._. bite you! D<

aye alrightey :D

meimei, xiaomei, jiejie :D

(ignore the chinadoll head ._. i've no idea why. my hair looks so much cooler please.)

ANYBODY WANTS TO GO AND CUT HAIR?! I GO CUT WITH YOUUUUU :D

tralalala. quite a senseless post.

bussing with bian tai orang utan tmrw! if she does it again i might just chop off her finger O: hahahah! talk about the doubleB love manxzxzxz. :D

anyone wants to ask me out for movies! or we can go cyclinggggggggg :D (hahahah gladys i know you want to date me!)

alrightey, be thankful;

dont rumble, grumble, tumble!

life's good :D

/edit- sorry for the rubbishy spacings between paragraphs! it doesnt work no matter how many times i edit ._.

doubleb <3

reading convo history with doubleb.

and i realised most of it's quite rubbishy ._.

but why cant i stop smiling? (O:)

aye! goose lorh, everything feels like ytd. she complain about IH, i complain about OM; she scold me for sleeping late, i scold her for not eating, she tsk tsk my ankle, i tsk tsk her knee. then the ATTACK OF THE BNAE. (-evil glint flashes across xiaoen's eyes-) debates about who is stronger. (the answer is obvious.) someone talking about sleeping and never waking up again, dying in fires and whatnots. (the BNAE will save you :D)

OMG I JUST XIA DAO, thought the post was gone ._.

oh yes, remember evebiosliabo!

how you always emo emo and make me emo! when you and her fan lian! ): yay but see, rainbows appear after storms <3 omg why does everything feel so ancient but so recent :/ ahahahah poop, my peanut brain is slowly filled with overwhelming gushes of memories and emotions. ._. heh and one-sided convos! :D mm, shall start one-sided convos again when im free [x ehhehhheh mm, we shall go catch our memories again! ohman it's your last year here ): (can you fail sec 4 and stay for another year, pretty please? :D)

ohman reading msn convos is such a warm and fuzzy gan jue. hehheh! daoing molecules and zapzap eyes!



time flies, wo zhang da le :D (ni ye bian lao le.) and look! you're really really a ma'am (: hehheh! mm, we're all maturing (well then again, maybe not really..) our bones and joints stiffen with the passing of age (maybe they even soften, disintegrate and disappear..) aye, here's what you told me in january last year, "you will get sick of this me sooner or later and you will come to hate me. trust me, really." whoopee doo! but too bad, i still lurbb moii doubleb worrxzxzxzxz!

aye, then you'll cry for no reason, emo emo emo. then flying hugs will fly all over the place! and you will always say sorry when it's really not your fault, saying you feel bad, which makes me feel bad ._.

it's funny how humans interact, how we seem to affect others one way or another :D

AHAHAHAHAHAH! AND PEOPLE SAY I LOOK LIKE YOU REMEMBER! O: mm, last year you were the one telling me you pa pa go obs, now i tell you i pa pa also! mm, we were still discussing you and weiyi going for graces camp this year hehheh :D and one year poof-ed pass like that. (promise me you'll show me pictures! [x)

mm, last time you said, "we can talk next time together (:" (on the phone) eh goose lorh, i never call you before! hehheh, next time i shall call you and maybe you can be my another phone-talking partner besides meimei! :D

ohman im just typing all this as i read the msn history [:

balalalalalala i shall end this post here, cos you're waiting waiting! all i can say is, thank you for everyth, doubleb! you've been such a wonderful human being (minus all the retarded and bian tai-ness); even though sometimes your dao-ing molecules start hopping about, but awwww, you still love me at the end of the day :D

so, i shall end this off with this random one-liner i found,
ming tian hui geng hao!

;cherish :D

<3!

instant noodles, instant joy! :D

aah, the joys of eating instant noodles!
all hail instant noodles! :D

note to self: stock up on cup noodles in cupboard, cos cooking in the pot's abit troublesome (:

yay now my tummy's filled and im belly happy! :D

random

aye, given up on speech ._.
shall continue tmrw :D

i will sleep early from now on! [x
why?
cos i want to grow taller and i dont want to die early. :D

aye, what a rubbish post.

g'night world! :D

and and!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVELYN <3

tanyanquan!

ahem!
this is the very first post dedicated to someone!
HAHAHAHAH TYANQUAN IM GOING TO MENTION YOU NOW NOW NOWWWW :D

yan quan is my bearrrr :D she keeps asking me why i call her bear, but i really dont know why i call her bear. aye dont care! you are bearrrr :D


sometimes, i call her yan yan :D yan yan is yummy!



it's amazing to think how we've only really known each other for one month plus.
one month plus?! O:
one month plus. :D

doesnt feel like a month only. but ah well!
it's been absolutely wonderful to sit beside miss tan. even though we find it really difficult to explain stuff to each other during maths lessons, because neither of us understands anything; it's been great fun learning with her, as well as learning from her :D

heh, i remember her asking me,
"xiaoen, are you very sad?"
i was abit ._. and O: when she asked. (haha!)
cos she carries this strong suspicion that behind lee xiao en's smiles, there lies this inner self which is dark, sad, and emooooooooooooo.
which, unfortunately, isnt true.

it's a warm, fuzzy feeling when you realise that little stuff you do actually mean quite a lot to another person. yeah everybody, go and spread the love! a smile, a hug or a little pat on the head. :D

bearrrrrrrrrr, have more confidence in yourself okay! :D whatever it is, always be true to your heart! [: i admire your frankness in sharing feelings (not directly, but on your blog :D) and the way you think and reflect on stuff. so, monitress of threeeten! you are capable alright, threeeten ting ni dao di! being a monitress is bu rong yi, but you can do it! <3

yay do you notice there are alot of smiley faces! (:

ahahaha alrightey that's all for now :D the la speech beckons. i just decided on my topic ._.

SHOOOOOOOOOOO MONDAY BLUES! :D hooray for monday! [;

yay :D

it's 3:17 am, and im finally done with unseen prose.

i need to learn how to manage my time!

yep, and get my spiritual life back on track. out with the rubbish!

alrightey, good morning world (:

i pray for strength and concentration today. help me, Lord.

lotsa love! :D

catch up; ketchup :D

im easily tickled in the middle of the night, when im brain dead from doing work.
like now.

-xiaoen! says:
im starting on my first paragraph for part 2. ._.

we are all slaves to something says:
that is quite sad

we are all slaves to something says:
i am ending SOON

-xiaoen! says:
well done.

we are all slaves to something says:
like left one or two more point

we are all slaves to something says:
okay that sounded bad

-xiaoen! says:
-pats self on back (:-

-xiaoen! says:
nah. hokay JIAYOU MANXZXZXZ.

-xiaoen! says:
I WILL CATCH UP

-xiaoen! says:
ketchup.

-xiaoen! says:
AHAHAHAH.

-xiaoen! says:
yum.

HAHAHAH! isnt it funny! okay sorry for this uber random post. im highly amused with my sense of amusement, and my puny brain is disintegrating soon... with one more page of unseen prose to do.

eyedrops are evil. ): i hate eyedrops eyedrops eyedrops! my very first eyedrop drop last saturday. what a day worth commemorating. :D

shall post about nyps camp another day (: i bet the children are missing me heaps and leaps! :D

go KETCHUP! :D

the tongue is the deadliest weapon.
if two parties quarrel, the squabble only gets louder and louder and louder. sometimes, it's difficult to stone and swallow every single @#$%^&*(*&^%$#@ word waiting to errupt from within. you might even get internal injuries (really, my lungs feel like bursting when i tahan stuff.) but anyway, i think it'll help to cool off the situation if one person can just shut up or smth. when two parties quarrel, neither of them can see each other's point of view. it's quite frustrating/amusing to hear quarrels, cos obviously both sides are blind to their own faults. however, no matter how pissed one is with watching/hearing quarrels, do remember to stay out of it and never join in, cos the angry bug will bite you and you'll be screaming your head off the next moment. the astonishing power of quarrels is that it has the ability to wake even the heaviest sleepers (like me) up, even on a day when they are exhausted and really very tired. with quarrels, you dont need an alarm clock. covering your head with a pillow to avoid noises from quarrels doesnt really help, cos you kindof end up suffocating (i tried it). if relationships last through quarrels, they become even stronger. however, if ties break because of quarrels, it's most probably gone forever? quarrels are dumb. i dont like quarrels. quarrels psychologically affect everyone around, which is something like passive smoking, i suppose. cos it only concerns two parties (or more), yet everyone else seems to have equal chances to become sick.

hahah, dont bother probing. im fine already. my psychological recovery time is quite fast! a sunbeamm radiates love and joy. (:

let's all learn to put ourselves in others' shoes. perhaps it'll make the world just a little kinder :D